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[08 Aug 2005|01:51am] |
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Ok fuck this im tired of meeting people that i think i can trust but i cant, and then i get walked on. Ya know i didnt do shit to anyone. Now im like the biggest bitch to everyone. Ya know sorry springhill is filled with two faced, imature childern and i found them. Ya know it was fun in the beginning and now look all done and over with. I cant wait till i leave to go on to bigger and better things im not gonna be here and live like a fuckin red neck like they do im not gonna be here the rest of my life im better then that and i know this. the only person i can depend on is myself and im learning that life is a open book with blank pages and u fill them up and im doing that and the only thing i am glade about this past two months ive come to relize more and more about myself fuck everyone else i dont need friends they are nice to have but hey if i dont have them im not gonna be all emo about it and cut myslef or sit in my room alone and drink . i love mrs.s and im grateful for her letting me stay there as long as i did and brea u can hate me all u want i dont care cus most likely when niki says something u are like yeah i hate jen too so w/e it was fun while it lasted
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| Where does this drama begin! |
[01 Jul 2005|05:24pm] |
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I hate the shit thats been goin on and yeah people my not like me or think im stupid but i really dont give a shit im me and if u dont like it then ohwell i have been through so much shit these past like 3 or 4 weeks and its crazy i hate it friends or no freinds im gonna have to deal wit. I have been offered to move to cali and like 6 months with my brother and i didnt know if i wanted to go but now i think i might so i can just drop everything not brea or here parents or lindsey but everyone thing else and yes this includes my mother and family cus im just tired i wouldnt do anything emo cus thats gay i like my life i love who i am but maybe i can make new friends but one of the reason i wasent gonna go was beacuse of my friends i have here and now there is fighting drama middle school bullshit and even though all this shit is goin on and people may dislike me or like me i dont care i would still do anything for anyone of u i would
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[15 Jun 2005|06:57pm] |
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Well first entry.I have a new home now at breas because my mother kicked me out of the house which blows.But everything is goin fine and i havent got everything figured out yet,but i will.Im so glad i have a group of friends that i do, without out them id be lost.There has always been something wrong with my home its hard to put my finger on it but i know the jist of it all.Im becomeing to know more of myself and what i wanna become in life,who,how,and need to be.There have been time where i felt like i had nothin and times i felt i had everything but never nothin in the middle of it.sometimes i wish i could just go to the beach just stare at the sky and have it all takin from me and me to become one with the earth.where id have nothin to worry about and still be part of the beauty.
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